I'll go fighting nail and teeth.

velvetpristine @ 2005-09-21T16:58:00

2005-09-21T22:00:06Z

It's funny how I never seem to take serious things quite so serious until it's all of a sudden happening and taking over everything. Yet with tiny insignificant things I completely freak out and drive myself insane over. I don't get it.

So, the hurricane is coming and apparantly people are now staying at our house from Houston or something. This is just crazy. I honestly didn't think it was going to effect us too much but now we might get tornadoes and flooding. Ahhghhgghkd.

velvetpristine @ 2005-09-11T20:12:00

2005-09-12T01:13:42Z

Blahhhh.

Having a stomach virus stinks.

and this is where it ends.

2005-09-07T21:14:43Z

Good to know we are all so easily forgotten.

So thank you. For making me realize that this is how it will be from here on out.

being honest and not pretending youre amusing me.

2005-08-23T16:36:45Z

It's amazing that at one point in time, I was able to write paragraphs upon paragraphs in this thing and somehow feel accomplished in a weird way. Accomplished as if I had things to share that others would find interesting, but now it's my only resort out of boredom and one of the many insignificant, pointless things I do until it is time to go to work once again. However, I honestly do love my job and am okay with this. So here is my life as of the last week.

Joe and me at our new house.

Me, one of our roommates, and the little girl she babysits.

Joe and I playing in the color shadows at the science place in Ft. Worth.

Me yelling through an echo tube...or something.

Joe eating a turtle at the dallas aquarium.

A scary eel!

This is my favorite part of the aquarium...except the picture would be better if the manatee stayed in the picture.

There he is.

Cute little penguin.

My boyfriend does origami constantly. There's a shark, swan, rockets, kangaroos, gerbil, mockingbirds, fish, duck, mouse, and king tut in there.

I bought new sunglasses yesterday.

I guess that's about it. Oh, and we have been rock climbing lately as well. Random I know, but definitely entertaining.

Even though I don't have huge events happening in my life, and all I honestly do is work and as of 6 days from now attend school...I am happy with everything. More than you know.

i wish i had a kitty

2005-08-09T02:04:07Z

Well, we finally got the internet hooked up. We have now moved and live in a house which is very nice. You should come over and hang out with us.

Thank you Sara for giving me a discount on shoes today. It was very nice of you and very appreciated. :)

Other than that, nothing new worth writing about. I work a lot, and take care of kids. I need a job that pays more but I like my job too much to just leave. Weird, huh?

If anyone wants to send me any mail (hint, hint) my address is 1016 Springcreek Denton, Tx 76210. I want someone I can write to or to write me. Nick Horten, you are first on my list. And then Brittnee because I miss her a lot lately.

When did my posts get so ridiculously boring.

I have the best boyfriend.

2005-07-11T22:37:39Z

My Happy

This is what I came home to...

A bedroom full of 500 balloons!!

My boyfriend is the best.

And super goofy.

Ahhhh!

Then Cole and Will came over to play too.

and we partied it up.

Then more people came and drinking games were started. (my roommate Courtney, and my other soon to be roommate Destin)

And I had a lot of fun!

It really was a great birthday and I couldn't have asked for anything better. : ) Except for my Longview friends to be there, but guess what, I will more than likely be seeing you guys next weekend!!! Yay!!! So make time for me and Joe! <3.

8 days-woowoo

2005-07-01T21:35:12Z

My birthday is soon. I got my first birthday present today in the mail and that was exciting. (Joe's mom and his sister) I really do enjoy birthdays a lot...of course it won't be anything like it has ever been, but still...it's a nice break from things I suppose. Plus, it's also nice to know how much people really do care. Everyone needs that every once in awhile.

24 days until I get to move.

(Didn't I do this last year too?)

velvetpristine @ 2005-06-24T01:51:00

2005-06-24T07:20:33Z

My birthday is coming up and that's exciting. It's a little sad though realizing your birthday list is incredibly difficult to make once you get older, and it starts to include things such as household appliances and necessities...who knows, maybe it will be a surprise. It's seriously amazing how different this birthday and this time of year are completely different than the last. Sometimes it's just too much to take in.

Twenty years old is weird. My life has truly become many things I never thought it would. The good and the bad. It seems I grew up, but at the same time I was forced to deal with things that I don't know how to handle...so I'm still sitting here like a child slowly learning about the terrible secrets of life people tried so hard to protect you from. I hate it. I'd give anything to be that child and be oblivious to it all. Those things that make you doubt everything, and wonder what you really are and what the point actually is. I just don't understand how this whole concept works. Do you just get used to the letdowns in life or do you turn them into better things? And if so, I just don't know if I can do that because it wears you down to the point you can't look at their faces or hear their voices without hurting and knowing this is not how it always was. You became what was left of something, and you will never have it pieced together again because this happens. And I just can't seem to find the good in it. Especially when it keeps you up at night and when you want to smile it pulls your cheeks down again and makes you realize you're fucked up for awhile until you learn to just deal. It's just very silly and frustrating, ya know?

Anyway. So. It's late and I very rarely stay up late these days since I'm a working/learning girl. Although it is summer and all. It's down to one month until we move, but there is a slight chance we will be living in a house instead which could lead to a very interesting year with roommates and what not. Also, I have recently just discovered where our long lost remote of 2 months has been. Apparantly Ashley has a problem she was unaware of and slipped it into her purse one evening to take home for her own enjoyment. Why is it that this seriously just made my night, ha...what a crazy way to find a lost remote.

It's almost been a year and I don't know any other news better than that. <3. Without him, I probably would have fallen apart already.

P.S. John, we miss you. I realize I talk and gossip to you more than I do anyone else on this planet and I like that a lot.

Oh, and Nick I miss you too. And we kicked your ass. (or so I heard)

always coming back to me

2005-05-31T03:46:40Z

Life is busy. But definitely going well.

I don't get to talk to all you guys as much as I use to, due to internet failure and what not...but just know that I do think about you guys often and miss you. It won't be too long before we spend time together again.

So, new things. Not too many it seems. Picked out some furniture that will soon be purchased for the apartment we move into the end of July...bought a microwave...and a game cube so now Joe and I are really living it up. And there's been this recent obsession with fitness. We'll see how long it lasts. That pretty much explains everything.

The internet frustrates me to no end. As do people and I still can't decide if change is good or bad.

superfast

2005-04-13T19:59:47Z

Hey guys.

I don't read/write on here anymore, but today is one of those days. Those days that drag on. Mainly because the one person I spend all of my time with is at work, and everyone else is busy. Blah.

So whats new. Uhm. I'm incredibly happy lately and most of you know, that's fairly new. School is almost over and that'll be nice. Then off to Michigan, and Florida later in the summer for a lovely wedding. Oh! And a new apartment in August! I hate my roommates so this is going to be fantastic. Everyone/anyone can come over and stay forever with me and Joe. Promise.

I/we miss John Wilcox a lot. He should be the first to come visit.

I also miss Krystal and Brittnee because you two make me so happy and very rarely am I around girls. (Other than Ashley of course.) Geez. I really miss my friends a lot. We will come visit Longview soon, I promise.

There was no point in this other than to say, I miss you all...and Joe does as well because he talks about it all the time.

Every else we love: can we have a party once school is out, because it is very much needed. Anyone??

tiny two

2005-02-25T18:35:31Z

Hey guys.

I cut my hair off. And Joe waited.

the first.

2005-02-15T18:44:23Z

Well, I thought it was a very nice day.

my update.

2005-02-07T18:16:28Z

Happy Birthday Ashley! I hope you have a good day and call us tonight for your present. <3.

love to say this in your ear

2004-10-26T04:18:06Z

Speeches suuuuuuuuuck.

One day less than a month until I get a break from school and a break from being unhappy. Finally.

I'm excited for Christmas time. I'm ready for the semester to be over, so maybe things can be further along than they are now. I need a change so bad because it's just become so ridiculously hard lately. It's just not me at all. I don't know what else to say about that.

I'm going on a date with Ashley this weekend. That's cool. I'm scared for how the rest of the weekend is going to turn out.

I miss my friends in Longview. I know I should be going there this weekend to see you guys, and I really am sorry that I'm not. Just know that I miss you terribly Krystal, Brittnee, John, and Talan. I really really do. I'm always the one to talk about not wanting to drift apart from the people that matter the most to me, but it's almost starting to feel like that is happening. Just understand Krystal that I will fix it soon. I'll figure out a way to come visit, and hopefully things won't be as hard as they are right now for much longer. I love you and I miss you.

blaghghhhggg

2004-10-20T17:27:33Z

Fuck you communications class.

im bursting.

2004-10-16T18:08:08Z

I had no idea today was sweetest day. (or bosses day but who cares about that) I got flowers delivered to my apartment this morning and I don't think I've ever been happier. I just can't believe it. Even though things have been difficult lately, I really am so lucky. So thank you.

<333.

Happy sweetest day to yooouuu too.

P.S. Anyone wanna go to fright fest for Halloween??

painless let me pass through

2004-10-04T02:29:08Z

New screen name: time to be small

I don't know.

ring ring...

2004-08-22T18:26:23Z

Good times. Funny times. Sometimes
life really does amaze me.
----------------------------
Waiting is hard. Real hard.

suuuck

2004-08-17T19:38:45Z

So, yesterday I went job hunting with Sara, Amy, and Leo. Sara and Amy had a job within the first hour while Leo and I were left with NOTHING. This is going to be a bit difficult I think.

Things are funny right now and definitely not how I had expected them to be. I like it though. It's weird knowing things won't be the same ever again. For some reason, it seems like everything is slowly on its way to being right for once.

perfect.

2004-08-16T17:42:22Z

So. I am now back in Denton and have finally finished moving into the apartment. Come over. Except don't expect to eat because all we have is strawberry cake and queso.

That's really all I have to say. I'm happy, yet I know pretty soon I'll realize all the things I always knew were there aren't anymore and what do you do when your life isn't as predictable as it always was?

Hm. : )

zap

2004-08-15T02:19:39Z

I seriously got attacked by a black cat on Friday the 13th.

And you wonder why I'm so superstitious. Because this shit really happens!

speed up speed up help help help

2004-08-06T03:23:14Z

Only a few weeks until I get a little closer to figuring things out in order to have what I want.

The movie Love Actually is absolutely wonderful. It makes me so happy.

So. I'm going to study abroad either next summer or the one after. I'm going for London or Scotland at the moment...just depends on the classes they're offering once that time comes around. I'm tired of just being here...wasting away like everything else. Time to do something with myself. All I need is 60 hours of school, save up money, and I'm set.

I have so many things I'm looking forward to right now. The worst part is wishing time away...but that's all there is to do when all the things I want I can't have now.

8 days until I move. Who is excited???

i hate regrets

2004-08-02T04:17:41Z

I have a lot of things I really want to work on.

Better friendships. Appreciating the people I really should. Distancing myself from those that I shouldn't. Then, eventually, let people truly get to know me. For some reason this matters a lot to me and I'm going to try my hardest to make up for all the shit in the past. With all of you.

And then maybe I will be satisfied.

whoever said "what goes around comes around" was obviously full of shit.

2004-07-31T06:43:35Z

Stupid motherfuckers.

woowoo

2004-06-28T16:43:58Z

Happy Birthday Willie!